Hi,
Posted this on another site.
The thief.
Yeah I look good (well for a 46 year old guy, I believe I do) and yeah I have MS (thats Multiple Sclerosis), with a PP (Primary Progressive) in front of that acronym making it PPMS. That means NO remissions, just a steady decline, and nobody can me how tell how steep or quick.
Looking at me you couldn’t tell, but see me walk or listen to me would have you believe that I was drunk. Not a hard thought as being Scottish people think that anyway.
It’s a thief.
I used to walk long distances, go to the gym and drive extensively.
Now walking more than ½ a mile is just a joke. My hand/eye co-ordination is gone when it was great and I could keep a handyman busy for ages.
It’s a thief.
I can accept that (it’s difficult) but why should my wife and daughter? They are great and now to see my life change whilst they are great must be hard. Seeing my decline has me questioning “Is it fair on them?”. The answer is a resounding NO.
It’s a thief.
It’s not fair on them at all, they deserve the man I used to be not the man I am now, staggering around, slurring and spilling things (seriously, keep me away from candles and cups). Seriously.
It’s a thief.
The looks I get daily, “look at the Drunkard”, are now ignored, along with the bruises from the door frames I bounce off. I know and so do many others that yes I do imbibe now and again, but nowhere near what I used to.
MS has stolen ME and that’s not something that has been easy to steal. That is why it’s a thief.
Many think that MS is a condition or disease, me, I know it is a thief. MS has stolen me from me.
I am still the same (although older) guy I used to be just slower, less steady and weaker than I used to be, but still me.
Don’t ask for a cup of coffee, unless you really want ½ a cup, because the other half has been stolen!