So I’ve had a few months of odd symptoms. I’m a big believer that it is all in my head and I’m over reacting. In fact that is a consistent thing I do with every ailment I get..... think it is nothing and I’m that I’m over reacting and then it turns out to be a “thing.” One example is thinking I was overreacting about a coughing fit and reluctantly drove myself to hospital and it turned out I was having a serious enough asthma attack that required 1:1 observations.
anyways, I initially put down my pins and needles down to Morton’s neuroma (MN) even though far more of my foot was effected than would be indicative of MN. The pain was pretty bad and I was having shooting pains a couple of times a day but kept putting off going to the GP because it’s not an emergency. Anyways, I ended up having a fall and broke a toe. After a few weeks in the boot I couldn’t tolerate the sensation and had to take it off because it was so unbearable plus I kept tripping up even more. When the boot was off I had tingling still up as far as my knee.... it was more evident because the increased “sock” sensation from the boot wasn’t consuming me.
Also had reduced sensation which I attributed to swelling from the fracture. Turned out my foot was ice cold too but I couldn’t feel the temperature change myself. Went to GP who ruled out circulation problems and said it was neuropathic but because I had an I healed fracture I would have to wait and see. Also had random back twinges and bolts of pain but everyone including myself was Happy this was posture related thanks to the fracture.
at the same time I was also having extremely bad fatigue, impaired cognitive function and difficulty with word finding. I was willing to put that down to the energy it was taking to heal a fracture. Also a total drag as I started a new job that I need a lot of brain power for and need to remember how to form a sentence that sounds like I know what I am talking about.
so, after many weeks later, tingling/sock sensation remains on my foot and leg. It’s relieved temporarily by massage...l returns as soon as I stop. The pain is intermittent but I get either a bolt of pain or burning sensation a couple of times a day. It’s bad enough to make me stop what I’m doing and grimace. I’m getting lovely muscle twitches on the same side too. More relaxed I am the more prominent. Still a chronically exhausted pigeon. Coordination was never my strong point but these days I’ve had many an accidental hug with the walls in my apartment. I don’t feel dizzy, it’s more like I’m being pulled sideways and downwards by gravity. My back symptoms went away as my posture returned to normal post fracture. Hand had started tingling too.
So after having many problems getting a GP appointment (why did I decide to go with 9-5 life for a promotion), he initially didn’t hear what was I saying and checked out my foot for fracture healing then when I listed a bit more he had that “oh (removed by moderator)” face for a fraction of a second before returning to normal business like face (I really hate that my training and job make me notice very subtle changes in people’s reactions). Bloods were ordered. Did turn out my hand was carpal tunnel thanks to using crutches and spending most of my work life on a computer.
Fast forward to today. Went in for carpal tunnel injection and it turned out my bloods were back..... bloods were all completely normal. I was really banking on it being B12 deficiency or my love of sugar finally taking me to type 2 diabetes. Part of me was super relieved and thinking..... yay! I am imagining it all! There is nothing wrong! I’m overreacting! Hypochondriasis FTW! But also thinking whhhhhhy can’t it be B12 deficiency so I can get my butt muscle pumped full of that lovely orange liquid so I can feel human again. To “oh (removed by moderator), what if it’s one of these times something is really messed up with me.”
So, GP says to go away and see how I am in 4 weeks and if I still feel the same a referral to neurology will be made. I’ve no problem going away and waiting underneath it all. I’m rather ok with it being “nothing” because I’d much rather have hypochondriasis than anything else. But there is always the what ifs......
i know it could still be something else but I’m still having that darn what if.
My my question is..... what helped you get through the what ifs and waiting? I’m crap at waiting. I like a plan. Give me a problem and I’m instantly in planning to manage it mode. Right now all I can manage is to eat my worries.